The world is now in a mass awakening process that will bring us closer to the light source of which we are all a part. I am a storyteller by trade and my own unique road to awakening is Following the Light. In writing about my continuing journey of spiritual enlightenment, my hope is that it will help others to follow their own spiritual path.
My yearning for a more enlightened existence began over 20 years ago when I was questioning everything in my life from my long-term marriage, my relationships, my career, and my spiritual beliefs. I wasn’t religious. In fact, my parents rarely mentioned God when I was growing up and they certainly didn’t turn to Him in times of trouble. And without spiritual direction, I was lost as an adult. Once married, I turned to my husband’s religion Baptist. But the fire and brimstone sermons of hell and sin just didn’t resonate with me.
So I turned to the Bible, trying to glean what I could by myself. I understood the old testament story of God saying in many ways that we could not save ourselves by our acts, but there would be a savior born that would take away our sins. But how did this story relate to my life and my problems? I didn’t know, but I knew I had deep dissatisfaction with my life.
In 1998, after my18-year marriage ended in divorce, I went from being unhappily married to unhappily single. I was searching for answers that never came and looking back now I realize I wasn’t conscious enough to find them. Having been married from ages 21 to 39, I also felt the need to explore the life I had thought I missed. I filled my longing with sex, drugs, and alcohol. None of which satiated the emptiness inside.
I moved to New York City in 2002 to be closer to family and to advance my writing career. I thought the excitement of city life would help me find the contentment that had previously eluded me. Once there I threw myself into my career where I became a sought after real estate journalist. But neither fame nor fortune brought the satisfaction, if it did it was short-lived.
This became evident while attending a luxury residential real estate party in the Time Warner Center at Columbus Circle. I was drinking a glass of champagne looking out over the 360-degree view of Manhattan in a multi-million apartment. What should have brought elation, brought tears. I was at the top of my career, making more money than I ever had in my life and still there was this profound sadness. I still hadn’t found true and lasting meaning to life. I composed myself and left the party.
My sister, who also lived in Manhattan, didn’t understand my unhappiness. She envied my life. I hated it. I began to resent having to attend these parties where people were so ego-driven. I didn’t find anything in common with them. Something was missing. I just didn’t know what.
The only solace was my connection to God and the thirst for new age spirituality. I read every book I could by several authors that covered angels, positive thinking, consciousness or new age thought. But I couldn’t practice what I read. I understood it, wanted it, prayed for it, meditated upon it, made vision boards to attract it, but I just couldn’t reach nirvana. Never realizing that it could not be found outside myself.
So I turned to therapy, because there was something I wasn’t able to heal or to get to by myself. I poured out my heart and soul to my therapist, who helped me to heal my inner child. Together we uncovered how my painful childhood was affecting me as an adult and all my decisions stemmed from not being loved enough or properly by my parents. Part of the process to wholeness was learning to love myself and to forgive my parents.
I would eventually leave New York for parts west, helping me to discover my destiny of becoming a spiritual writer and angel card reader. Although, I still don’t have all the answers, my experience is that this awakening process takes you through a purging of all the things that separate you from the God source. So as I travel closer and closer to the light, I am still healing, still seeking, and still learning.
If you wish to contact me or read more about my services and my continuing story, please visit my website http://followingthelightangels.com/ or my Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/followingthelightangels.
May God bless you on the journey towards your own light and spiritual fulfillment. Namaste.
July 29, 2011
Enduring The Path To Awakening
By Barbara L. Nelson
Spiritual awakening for most of us doesn’t happen overnight. It is a process and not an easy one or so I have come to find out. Unfortunately, angels don’t suddenly appear and lead you to some promised land the moment you decide to walk a spiritual path. It could take months or years before a new way of life opens for you, and so it was for me. The reason for the long arduous journey to find our truth is that we can’t be transported directly to Nirvana without dumping everything that prevents us from being there in the first place. The decision is merely the first step that leads to many more steps in the enlightenment process.
In order for change to take place, Spirit shows us what we are currently attracting and why. It’s a journey of sorts much like the nighttime travels that Ebenezer Scrooge took in the Charles Dickens tale “A Christmas Carol.” In order to find another way, we first have to determine where we came from, where we are now and where we are headed, if we don’t change our ways.
In energetic terms, if everything is energy, and everything omits an energy frequency or vibration, then we have to change our vibration to attract a different experience. If not, we will keep attracting the same things over and over and over. So we first have to figure out what frequency we are omitting in order to change it.
Frequency levels are bound by years of conditioning that have led us to hold onto deeply ingrained limiting beliefs about how the world operates or how it should operate. Those beliefs are the control system through which all our choices are based upon and will determine our frequency level. In order for a more spiritually-aligned life to manifest, we have to make different choices. In other words, change the inner world (your vibration) and your outer world will change, and then those things aligned with your new vibration will be drawn to you.
In 2009, I turned my back on a great job in Manhattan at a prominent public relations firm, to find my truth, my calling, or God’s plan for life. However, for two years I have found more suffering than I have milk and honey. My frequency really needed some fine tuning evidently. I truly thought at the time that since I gave up so much, the least God could do was to make things easy for me. Nope, anything worth having is never easy or everyone would be doing it. They aren’t. Only one percent of the world’s population is conscious or in the process of awakening. We are among the very few and if you are led to this site, you too are on the path.
This path requires a lot of trust that the Universe does know what it is doing, even when everything in your world is crumbling around you. Jobs will end, relationships will fail, and friends who you thought you knew will abandon you. The things that leave your life during this period are standing between you and the life you are seeking. They mirror back your belief system of your old life. They are holding your frequency in place, as they are at the same old frequency. Most of the people we are drawn to have similar beliefs systems and when we change ours, they no longer can relate to us.
You may find yourself alone, hurting, dealing with a major medical issue, and probably struggling with money issues as well. Some abandon the path at this point. Most don’t, however, because once you are on the path and in the midst of the enlightening process, you find it hard to go back to your old life. Your old life will feel empty and meaningless.
So you endure, you accept, you keep on the path until the shaking stops and the next phase begins.
Then there’s the silent period, the void, where nothing seems to be happening. Although outwardly nothing appears to be happening, deep spiritual changes are occurring.
The void isn’t any easier to endure. You may feel cut off from life, from friends and even God. You may become depressed and find that activities that once excited you now seem boring or meaningless. You may miss some aspects of your old life. You might be saying “At least I had stability. At least I knew what tomorrow would bring.” For me, dealing with not knowing was the hardest part.
But you can’t go back, nor can you move forward during this stage of the journey. For enlightenment requires silence, stillness and non-action in order for you to connect deeply to Spirit. With all the background noise in your former life you weren’t able to hear Spirit’s sweet whisper. Spirit doesn’t shout to be heard and it’s not going to compete with all the things in your life that distracts you. You have to be quiet long enough to hear it speak to you.
So you pray, you meditate and you may even break down and cry and rant and curse the heavens for having brought you here, here, where there is nothingness. But in this nothingness is fertile soil and in this moist mixture of a raw soul, creation can begin anew.
All along your vibration has been changing. You begin to attract signs and become aware of synchronistic events. Finally, after what feels like an eternity, a new beginning emerges from all the pain and suffering. But beware of false starts or pseudo beginnings. Many paths will beckon, some will only take you back the way you came, and the more you resist the changes occurring without listening to your inner voice, the longer you will stay in the void. Once you let go with trust and let the universe drive, you will know when a true beginning occurs, because you won’t have doubts as to its authenticity.
This new beginning is different for everyone, but it will most certainly be aligned with your deepest desires. Mine is to be a spiritual writer, which I am now doing.
I highly recommend a book that helped me through the process, “Finding Yourself in Transition: Using Life’s Changes for Spiritual Awakening”, by Robert Brument. You may also want to check out “The Dark Night of The Soul ” by St. John of the Cross, as well as Carolyn Myss’ “Teachings on Fundamentals of Spiritual Alchemy”. Remember stay on the path and trust in the process for it will eventually lead you to a more spiritually-fulfilling life.
Peace and love to all. Namaste.
June 23, 2011
The Green, Greener Grass of NOW
By Barbara L. Nelson
We have all been there. Standing in a place where the grass seems dull and yellow, but right across the fence its bright green and lush. But instead of wondering how we can get our grass that green, we hop over the fence.
If you find yourself saying things like “If I could only get a job with that company and make more money, I would be happy” or “If I could finally find a man who treated me right, I would be happy,” then keep reading.
Take it from a woman who has jumped fences one to many times, the grass always seemed greener until you got over there. Unhappiness is not something you can solve from an outside stimulus and 99.9 percent of time once you spend time in that other yard the grass will begin to look just as dull and dry as your old yard.
Whatever issues you are unhappy about will follow you over that fence, sprout roots and grow in the soil you are standing on. So the best way to get green grass is stay where you are and start pulling up those weeds and fertilizing the lawn you already have. By this I mean, accept where you are and try to identify and process those things that make you unhappy in your life first before you make drastic changes.
Is your job unrewarding, what about it makes you unhappy, unsatisfied or unfulfilled? Is there anything you can do in your current job to make it better? What benefits do you get by staying there? Think of all the positive attributes about your job. Does it allow you to pay your bills or does it give you the experience that would help you get a better job? Try to put things into perspective and be grateful that you aren’t standing in the unemployment line. Make a list of things you like as well as dislike about your job. Then start sending out resumes and start telling people that you are looking for a new job. At the same time, stop complaining about your current job. Complaining always draws more of what you don’t want.
If you are alone and unhappy, but think a relationship is going to make you happy, you’d better find out why you aren’t happy by yourself. Relationships do not make you happy. Happiness is not something you find, it’s something you create. To create your own happiness requires acceptance of yourself, the good and the bad. The healthiest relationships are between two individuals who are already happy with themselves. Two miserable people trying to find happiness through each other will only find more misery. Misery always loves company. Is there anything you can do now to improve your chances of having a healthy relationship, what changes can you make in your life right now that would increase your happiness? In addition, it’s always helpful to identify and process what went wrong in your past relationships. Did you proceed too quickly into intimacy? Did you miss warning signs early on that would have indicated that a person wasn’t right for you? Lastly, start making new friends, without the intent of finding anything but friendship. Love happens. It isn’t forced into being and it certainly doesn’t happen when we are complaining about how miserable we are being alone. So stop being alone and surround yourself with like-minded friends who uplift you. Who knows one of those like-minded friends might be related to the love of your life.
You’ve got to make the best of where you are right now. That’s the only way your life can change. Otherwise you are going to constantly be looking for the next best thing to pin your happiness on. What you don’t accept will merely persist in your life and you may find that your next job will be just as unsatisfying as your old job or that your new love interest won’t be any different than the last jerk you dated. The only thing you can change is you and the way you react to current circumstances in your life. Right Now is the only moment you have, so stop complaining and start appreciating the ground you are standing on. You may just find that you were standing on the right side of the fence all along.
May 7, 2011
Detaching From the Outcome
By Barbara L. Nelson
For me this necessary part of the manifestation process is the most difficult. But in order for creation to happen in our lives, we have to detach from the outcome. We have to learn the art of allowing. That’s why in any prayer at the end we say “this or something better.”
Sitting in the unknown zone trying to make things happen often turns out to be disastrous or so I have come to experience. You have to honor the entire process. You have to trust that the Universe is conspiring to do you good and whatever happens it is right.
I’ve always thought I was in the wrong place at the wrong time, so I have missed out on a lot of the wonderful “Now” moments. I was always thinking about something outside the now, the next job, the next town, or the next what-ever-it-is. I’ve always been into planning and making things happen and not allowing things to happen. However, sometimes all the planning and forcing your will upon situations will never get you what you truly need.
During this mecca to find my purpose, my truth, I’ve often had to throw my hands in the air and say “not my will but yours God.” I’ve had to cultivate the art of allowing by waiting for a door to open. I’ve always been the type to say “I want it, and I want it Now.” I wasn’t allowing the Universe to lead me to my desires. I wasn’t noticing the opportunities that Spirit was showing me.
Sometimes there is nothing for you to do. Sometimes you are in a void or draught period where the past is falling away, before the new can come in. These times are the hardest. When you are a doer like me, it can be excruciating painful to sit and wait.
In the void, you look at the darker sides of your being, honor them, learn from them and then release them. Sometimes in order for the new to come in, we have to drop the limiting beliefs that are holding us back. A cup filled with resentment, anger and thoughts of past, can’t be filled with new loves and new experiences.
For nearly a year and half, I was truly stuck and couldn’t find the path forward. I knocked on doors only to find that no matter how hard I rapped they would remain closed to me. I scratched my head, cried in fear, called out to God in the darkness asking “why?” Only to find the answers didn’t come, because I wasn’t allowing it to happen.
However, the voids are where I feel you do your best work on your soul. You have time to look in the mirror, because there are no outside influences being thrust upon you. You have to talk to yourself. You have to fall in love with all of you, the good, the bad and the ugly parts.
None of us are born perfect. No matter how we want to believe we are whole, parts of us remain in the past, parts of us are contemplating the future and parts of us we have yet to discover. In the void, we are able to integrate these splintered parts of us.
It’s take a lot of courage to remain detached, to wait, to not push and that’s what I had to do. My whole life I had grand plans and most of the time I strong-armed them into working out. But I was asking to live my truth. At the time, I thought I knew what that was, but it seems it was so deeply buried that it would take nearly two years of soul-searching to unearth it. Had I know this before I left, I am sure I would have stayed put and worked my nine-to-five public relations job in the city, did my three-hour commute daily and been satisfied in doing it. But that would have been a mistake, as we seldom are given enough insight to know failure will be our greatest teacher.
After leaving New York/New Jersey in 2009, I moved to New Mexico and nothing worked out. A full-time job never materialized, one of my roommates threatened me with violence and I didn’t find love. I lost my dignity and my shirt, so to speak, and it took me a long time to forgive myself for not being more prepared for the worst. I thought the magic carpet would be rolled out for me, since I was following my truth. Well truth isn’t what or where one might think it is, or so I have come to find.
The truth is we are human and we make mistakes, and life isn’t supposed to be a bed of roses. Life has drought times and harvest times, we have to learn to appreciate and allow both. In the drought years, we look inside for nourishment in the harvest years we look outward. During the drought times, we find out the most about ourselves. During the harvest times, we find out most about how we interact and are connected with the world. Both are required. All the time we are healing and growing physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
If we are lucky, we have more harvest times, but don’t expect them to last. We can’t exist in an eternal harvest. A farmer knows enough to allow a field be idle for a year, because it can’t support continuous life. The soil needs to be nourished and to rest. Humans are the same way, we need idle times.
I believe it’s the same aspect that’s been happening to the economy. We experienced an overabundance and the Universe had to pull it back into perspective or so I think.
I don’t have all the answers, but I have come to know life is change, and we have to learn to enjoy, honor and allow the harvest and drought periods. We also have to remain in the Now to be conscious enough to notice the Universe’s magical dance in our lives. Remember “this or something better.”
Namaste and Happy Mother’s Day to all you wonderful women around the world!
May 1, 2011
Being Present Creates Action Thoughts
By Barbara L. Nelson
In these hard economic and trying times, it may be difficult to remain positive and in the Now. Eckhart Tolle wrote several books on the importance of being in present, including ThePower of Now and The New Earth.
All we actually have is right Now. Yesterday is but a memory and tomorrow has not yet come. However, if we are ruminating over the past or daydreaming about a fantasy future we are not able to be in the Now.
Training the mind to remain in the Now isn’t easy. It takes practice to remain conscious of your thoughts and just be present. Sitting in nature may be the simplest way to do this. Really look at the tree, the butterfly, the grass, the lake or the flower. Try and quiet your mind and send thoughts of the past and future away, recommends Tolle.
When I first read ThePower of Now in 2008, I had several epiphanies. One came when an old boyfriend was sleeping over. It was morning and he was still fast asleep, so I read some of the book and went out for a walk. I ended up in the park. I sat concentrating on what was happening in the Now moment. When I walked back in the house, I knew that the old boyfriend had to go, because he was preventing me from moving on. Sure it was company and a momentary comfort, but it wasn’t healthy and it was preventing me from moving on with my life.
Every thought we think goes into the Universal Mind (the collective consciousness). My actions were telling the Universal Mind that I still loved my ex-boyfriend, when in fact I didn’t. When he was finally gone, another love possibility did enter. Although short-lived, it allowed me to move away from the past.
Currently, I am looking for a full-time writing gig and living with a roommate. After re-reading parts of The Power of Now just last week, I experienced another epiphany. Every time I don’t like where I am in life, I use the coping mechanism leftover from childhood of creating a fantasy future to prevent myself from thinking about the Now. Well, in doing that I also prevent myself from making changes, because the Now is only time we have to take action. Thoughts in themselves do not create things. Actions taken based on your thoughts are what cause creation. You can think all day about having an ice cream cone, but until you get in your car and drive to the store, you aren’t going to get one.
There’s another book that speaks about how past or future thinking can be detrimental –Women Who Run With the Wolves written by Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Ph.D. In the book, Dr. Estes cites the story “The Little Match Girl,” written by Hans Christian Anderson.
It’s Christmas Eve. The little girl is homeless and to support herself she sells matches on the street. She becomes extremely cold in the freezing weather, but instead of finding shelter she lights her matches one by one. In the match light she sees fantasies of Christmas’s spent with her grandmother, but her grandmother is dead. Still she fantasizes that she is still alive and there to comfort her. Finally down to her last match, the little girl freezes to death.
In other words, thoughts alone do not create things. Yes, we need to remain positive, but we also need to remain present. In the present, we can plan and take action. If we spend too much time thinking about what may be or what was, time ticks by without doing anything productive.
So practice being present and thoughts will begin to flow to you on the actions necessary to bring about the future you desire. Remaining in the Now also means being grateful for the positive things that are currently in your life, such as a place to live, a part-time job, supportive friends or a pet to love.
Times are tough right now for many of us in America and around the world. However, to make the necessary adjustments in life to bring about change, we must remain present, even though the past may have been better or our fictional future promises a better tomorrow. Now is the only moment we truly have. Cherish it.
April 23, 2011
Jesus, The Wayshower of Love
By Barbara L. Nelson
Who was Jesus and why did He come? The answer to that question is different for everyone. In some traditional religions, He was a Savior. To me, Jesus came not to save us, but to be a wayshower of God’s love.
As a child I used to watch and listen to my Grandmother pray the rosary. I knew it was a way that she felt closer to God, but I didn’t understand its meaning. I wasn’t raised Catholic like my mom. I wasn’t even raised in my father’s religion, Lutheran. My parents didn’t attend church, so they sent us to the neighborhood Presbyterian Church. One Christmas my sister played Mary, my brother Joseph and I played an Angel. Dressed all in white and staring down at the manger scene, I had no idea of the significance of this baby who changed the world. All I knew was that Jesus loved me.
After I got married to a Born Again Christian, I began to read the Bible and got “saved” myself. But in attending a Baptist church, I didn’t like the belief that those who aren’t “saved” go to hell. The Sunday messages were rarely uplifting, saying in some way or another how we are born sinners and will die sinners until we are “saved.” So I stopped going to church, which the church said was backsliding. So I backslid for awhile, but my heart cried out for understanding and God’s love.
I was finally introduced to new age spirituality that answered many of my burning questions about who Jesus was and who He wasn’t. So in mingling my traditional beliefs with those I formed from new age books, I believe Jesus Christ was a highly enlightened Being who was born and who died to show us the way to God‘s love.
In his birth and life, and death He showed us how to love one another, not to judge, how to heal and how to forgive. Many of Jesus’ messages was so blasphemous in His day that He was put to death for His beliefs. I often wonder, if He was born today if would He still be crucified. His message was not supportive of religion and I feel He wouldn’t be happy with today’s churches either. Religions that teach that their religion is right and others are wrong are not Christ like. Jesus didn’t teach this. I believe everyone seeks their own spiritual path and we are not to judge others for their spiritual beliefs.
God and Jesus are complete love. They love us unconditionally. No matter what we do, God doesn’t turn his back on us. He doesn’t get mad, get even or hold grudges. God doesn’t say “well you didn’t believe a certain way while on earth, so now you are damned for eternity.”
One of my favorite parables of Jesus is that of Prodigal son who asked his father for his inheritance, so he could live on his own. His father gives the son the money, while his other faithful son remains at home. The prodigal sons leaves and frivolously wastes his money. Broke and hungry, the prodigal son returns when there is a famine. His father welcomes him back with open arms and the other brother is furious at his father. He doesn’t understand how he could forgive him and welcome him back. In this parable, I believe the father is God and we are sons and daughter of God. No matter what we do, God loves us. He doesn’t judge us for our wrong doings. The only judgment is on this earth by other humans.
During his life, Jesus showed us how to lead with our hearts and not our egos. In fact, there are several depictions of Christ with his heart outside his body that is surrounded by light. Christ is pointing to his heart saying “this is the way.”
It is my belief that if you want a closer relationship with the Divine, Jesus is there for you. Night or day He will come to comfort you. Wherever you are in life, whatever is going on, Jesus can help. He doesn’t judge. He won’t condemn you. Through Jesus we have been taught that God is total love and acceptance. He is not a judgmental God to be feared. For who would want to go to God knowing He would not hear your prayers because you weren’t a particular religion or had done something so heinous that you were cast out of heaven.
Jesus’ last words on the cross were “Forgive them Father for they know not what they do.” Jesus’ birth, life and death showed us how much we are loved by God and there is nothing that can stand in the way of this love.
Happy Easter Weekend to you all. May peace and love reign on Earth!
April 17, 2011
Volunteering Creates Miracles
By Barbara L. Nelson
Volunteering – I can’t say enough positive things about volunteering. If you aren’t working or just want to meet new friends with common interests, it’s a great way to get out there where miracles can find you.
But the most amazing benefit of volunteering is giving back to your community, which makes you feel good about yourself and life. In this good vibration, we create positive events that otherwise may not have happened to us – in other words, synchronicity.
Volunteering also expands the network of colleagues that know your work. Believe me most of the time I’ve gotten a job offer, it’s through someone I know that knows somebody. Sure I’ve landed jobs through blind ads and via the Internet, but when I’ve gotten recommendations from others who know my work, I was already a shoe in. You see it works like this. Employers want to employ someone they trust. Chances are that if the employer knows the person that is recommending you, they have built up a trust with that person. Not a lot of people will betray a trust to find someone a job. That means their reputation would be on the line, if the person didn’t work out. It’s just like dating someone, if your friend already knows them, you feel a bit safer in meeting them.
Volunteering created a series of synchronistic events in my life when I moved to Lafayette, LA after college. I had a degree in journalism, but little job experience. So I began volunteering as a clerical worker answering phones for a homeless network. It was right before the Thanksgiving holiday, one of their busiest times of the year. Well, lo and behold shortly after I started, the volunteer coordinator found another job. It was only part-time, but it was a paid position. After working there about five months, a co-worker who knew I was a writer and looking for full-time work recommended me for a technical writing job. The person who hired me went to church with my colleague. I had no technical writing experience at all, but because my co-worker trusted me, so did the person who hired me. I would not have applied for that job, even if I had known about it, because my skill sets were not a match. However, because I was in the right place at the right time, I got the job. Later my boss moved to the West Coast to work for Microsoft and I became head technical writer. This all happened within a year of me volunteering at the homeless network.
In addition to landing a writing gig from volunteering, I met and became friends with a volunteer nurse at the homeless network. In getting to know one another, we found out we both grew up in the Chicago area and had lived in Northern California at the same time. She introduced me to new age spiritualism. We also attended a class on communicating with your angels at a local community college and thus began my interest in angels. Years later she passed away, but I will forever remember her and her teachings. I still have the tarot and angel cards she gave me and her friendship left a lasting impression on my life.
Today, I volunteer my public relations services to a food bank in Lafayette. In giving back to my community, I am out there where miracles can happen. Plus I have a recent reference and can add to my portfolio. Last week my press release helped to get the executive director on the local TV news and she’s interviewing with her hometown newspaper next week! I told her I was looking for a job in Austin. She knows my work because of our current relationship as well our previous working relationship at the US Census Bureau last summer.
I believe volunteering creates positive energy that the Universe picks up on. It’s just another way to spread love around. Love is the energy of the new earth. So get out there and let the Universe bless you with the miracle of synchronicity. There are a myriad of non-profits in every community that are in dire need of volunteers. I would suggest one in which you feel compassionate about the mission that way you meet like-minded people and enjoy the work.
April 6, 2011
Soaring Like an Eagle
By Barbara L. Nelson
Once again, I find myself at a turning point in life. It’s never easy to make the first step even when we know we have little choice. It’s a fight between the comfortable known life we now live versus the unknown life that looms large ahead of us like a cold, dark chasm full of undiscovered possibilities both good and bad. But unless we take that first giant leap into the uncharted what-could-be zone, we will never see our dreams realized.
Struggling with my first step to start a new life in Austin, TX, I met a spiritual friend for lunch, who told me a poignant story. He said when a mother eagle knows its time for her babies to leave the nest the little eaglets have to be encouraged to go. Since the down-covered nest has been their home for their entire lives and food is given on a regular basis, they would rather remain with their mother. So day-by-day the mother feeds them less and less and gradually removes all the leaves and soft things in the nest. Now, only the sharper sticks remain and the eaglets begin to get hungry. She ignores their cries for food. Eventually the eaglets are uncomfortable enough and hungry enough to spread their beautiful wings, jump from the nest and fly away. The mother eagle has done her job.
He said sometimes, “Barbara, God makes us see we need to leave the situation we are in to grow further.” However, change is never easy. The first step is deciding it’s time. You’ll know that time when God starts removing the things you cling to for comfort. This could be a job or friends or a love relationship. God is telling us better awaits us out there, but if we stay where we are now, we will never realize it. Too often we can’t let go of the past, even though it isn’t feeding us emotionally or spiritually any longer.
So right now if you are going through things that are beginning to feel a bit uncomfortable or you are just plain bored and unhappy with your current circumstances, perhaps it’s the Divine urging you onward. You have to be bold and fearlessness to leave a known life for the unknown that looms large ahead you. Some us of never do, instead we complain and get depressed because life isn’t what we expected.
At this point, I find prayer and the enlistment of the Divine helpful. Ask and you shall receive. Sometimes all you need is a boost of courage knowing that something higher than yourself is guiding you, but you must also take action. Meditation helps to find the guidance you may need. But again you can get all the guidance available in heaven, but if you don’t follow it, nothing will happen. I believe many people, including myself at times, remain at this stage too long. We want to move on, but fear of failure holds us back.
However, we must venture out where synchronicity can find us. A job or the love of your life isn’t going to find you in your living room or in front of your computer for that matter. For me I start by telling everyone I know that I am looking for a job or an apartment or whatever. It may not be them that ultimately helps me, but it may be someone within their network of friends that does.
Is God nudging you onward? To me He is saying “Barbara it’s time to spread your wings for a whole new life awaits you in Austin, Texas.” So here’s to all those eaglets wanting to soar with the eagles. You can do it. You do have wings that will take you places you’ve only dreamed of up till now. You can plan for just so long. Eventually, you have to jump into the depths of the unknown trusting that your wings are strong enough to take you to your next destination where life can begin anew.
April 2, 2011
The Universe Knows Your True Desires
By Barbara L. Nelson
You cannot fool the Universe. It knows your heart and in your heart is your truth. In my own life, I found that no matter how much I prayed for something, God read my heart and answered my heart not my mouth.
Have you ever been in an unhealthy relationship, only to find no matter how much you pray for the relationship to turn around, it eventually ends? Why is that? You may, at the time, have pled with God to save it, to make it better, but God reads your heart. Imprinted in your heart is your desire for a loving, nurturing relationship. God knows in your current relationship it can not be accomplished. God knows that if you don’t let go of those things that hurt you, you won’t find the things that will uplift you.
When you pray, you must release your prayer in faith that the Universe knows what’s best for you. In my lifetime, I realize that everything happens for a reason. Be it the ending of a job, a friendship or a love relationship.
Praying for spiritual enlightenment, you are going to go through a process to eliminate those things that are not spiritual, or things that keep you from a spiritual life. You are going to experience the “dark night of the soul,” which includes wandering in the desert without hope. One cannot know hope, if one does not know hopelessness. One cannot know love, if one does not know the absence of love. In the end of your journey out of the darkness, you will have grown closer to the Divine and the things that fill your life are now more aligned with your new spiritual desires.
I am not saying stop praying. I am saying when you pray sometimes you aren’t conscious of what your true desires are, but God does. If the Universe gave us our ego desires, we would all be living empty lives and the very things we desire would in the end, bring us unhappiness. God brings us the essence of our desires. If you want happiness, you may pray for millions of dollars. However, instead of winning the lottery, you might meet someone who helps you learn how to meditate, which helps you find a deep sense of peace and contentment that’s been missing in your life. In this contentment you are finally able to write that book you’ve been putting off, which eventually gets published, bringing you financial security and a true sense of accomplishment and joy.
In my own life last year, I was in dire need of a hip replacement and I had let my health insurance lapse. I prayed and was attempting to get medical assistance from the Veteran’s Affairs Department as well as the state of Louisiana. I prayed relentlessly for help from these two agencies. However, my true desire was to go to a private physician and have my surgery performed at the state-of-art surgery hospital recently built in town. I just didn’t think it was possible, so I continued to pursue the only route open to me at the time. Meanwhile, I came across an orthopedic surgeon’s office on my daily jaunts about town as well as the new surgical hospital, wishing I had insurance.
Well, after being unsuccessful in getting help from the VA and the state healthcare system, I found I was eligible for pre-existing health insurance through the HealthCare Reform Act. The insurance allowed me to choose my orthopedic surgeon and the hospital I wanted honored my in network PPO prices.
When I spotted the doctor’s office and the hospital last year, I told the Universe what I really wanted without even knowing it. Even my prayers of trying to get aid elsewhere didn’t prevent God from reading my true desire of having the best healthcare available. Even though I didn’t think it was possible at the time. God did!
Again I say your true desires cannot be hidden from the Universe. Every time you desire something that is the message to the Universe. In just living your life, you are sending messages to the Universe. For example, you walk by a café and see a loving couple in a passionate embrace and you say to yourself, “God I wish that was me.” But you get home that night and your significant other is stationed in front of the TV, hardly noticing you. Your true desires don’t match your life. The more you pray, the more things stay the same for what you want may not be available to you in that relationship.
So whatever is happening in your life now, trust that God does know what’s in your heart, even when you might not. Have faith that everything does happen for a reason, even when what we pray for doesn’t come to pass.
March 26, 2011
Overcoming Negative Energies
The awakening process for many of us has been going on for several years. We’ve noticed the changes in our spiritual life as well as physical life. This year the Ascension energy is increasing and I believe our physical, spiritual and mental bodies are transforming to prepare us for a new earth. Many believe these energies will reach a critical crescendo in December 2012.
The incoming energies will affect us in several ways. In my own life, to prepare myself for change, I’ve gone through a releasing process for more than two years. To hear more about this process, go to Newlightbody.com. I have also become increasingly empathic and intuitive. My dreams have become more symbolic and prophetic as well. These gifts of the Ascension process, if we aren’t conscious of it can also affect us in negative ways. If we are more receptive to energy, it makes sense that we are also sensitive to all energies both negative and positive.
With the recent disasters around the world and global conflicts, many of us whose intuitive gifts are increasing began to feel depressed. This week I was very down and I really couldn’t identify a situation in my own life that had changed to justify these feelings. I started reading energy reports from several sources including, Lightworkers.org. and Spiritlibrary.com, which made several recommendations.
I immediately stopped watching the news, which had my attention for days after the tsunami hit Japan. I was glued to CNN when coalition forces attacked Libya. It’s no wonder I was feeling depressed.
To counter the negative affects that I was being bombarded with, I listened to Doreen Virtue’s Angel Medicine CD to clear my chakras and realign my energy. I also highly recommend Louis Hay’s 101 Power Thoughts, which I’ve been listening to for years.
If you are feeling the affects of the recent global events or possibly the negative energy of other’s in your life, you should regularly clear yourself by performing energy cleansing techniques. There are several guided meditations via the Internet. Another great way to clear unwanted energy is bathing in sea salt. Here’s one site that details the benefits.
If you are an energy worker, it is understandable that you will take on the energy of others on a regular basis. Many energy workers surround themselves with white light to prevent much of the energy from coming in and routinely clear themselves after sessions.
Even if you aren’t per se an energy worker, but are awaking non-the-less, negative people will have a greater affect on you now. As your energy level increases (vibration), the effects of other people’s energy also intensify. You may find that you cannot be around people who constantly complain or dwell on negative subjects. This is normal. In fact, you can expect that many people will eventually leave your life. I found the old saying “misery loves company” to be very fitting in my own life. When you don’t want to commiserate with people, they will stop coming around. If you have to talk to them, remain conscious during the exchange and clear yourself afterwards.
As the Ascension process continues, so too will the increasing energy levels. It’s important to understand and remain conscious of how this energy will affect you. Some of the sites I have listed in this column will help you to do that.
Blessing and Light!
March 19, 2011
You are the Creator of your Life!
By Barbara L. Nelson
Whether you welcome it or not, there are new energies available to us. It is called the Ascension process. This process asks us to take more responsibility for our lives and to be more conscious of our own power. For me it meant letting go of worn out religious beliefs. Such as that we are separate from God or that God is the sole creator of our lives. These new energies help us to understand that we are responsible for creating everything that comes into our lives the good and the bad.
Those of us who are becoming more conscious in this new movement understand this. But everyday we run into unconscious beings, who instead of taking action in their lives, just complain. They let life happen to them.
I recently went through a total replacement of my right hip. I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis a couple years ago and tried everything from Reiki to over-the-counter supplements. Unfortunately, I was born with hip dysphasia as was my sister, who underwent double hip replacement at 45, and there was no getting around the fact that the disease was progressing. At first I hesitated on having the surgery. However, I soon realized it was either hip replacement or face life in a wheelchair.
Last week as I was waiting for my appointment with my surgeon for my one-month checkup, I happened to sit next to a woman who was considering total knee replacement and was having a cortisone shot for immediate pain relief. She was around her mid 50s, probably a couple years older than me. I immediately noticed a distinct difference between us. The entire time she sat next to me, she complained. She had become a victim of her knee injury and was not conscious of her part in healing her body.
Unlike me, she was overweight, did not exercise, and confessed to eating junk food. She was also addicted to the pain medication and was in a pain management program.
Although, I was still in walker, I have been very proactive in my recovery. I did the exercises prescribed by the physical therapist religiously and was following doctors orders. I even cycled up to the day I went into surgery, because I knew being in shape would help with my recovery. I rarely eat junk food and have always maintained my weight and as well as a regular exercise regime. I believe being conscious means loving oneself enough to take care of your body. It also means being conscious of the words you speak as well as the actions you take.
I’ve been in a great deal of pain during the last year, but I knew at some point this pain would end and I would again resume a pain-free life. I mediated on a time after surgery where I was dancing and enjoying life again. I’ve had to be very pro-active in my own health, because I was without healthcare insurance for over a year. But I knew at some point life would take a turn for the better and it did.
I am not saying conscious people don’t suffer or are without struggle, but it’s how we deal with these struggles that determines the outcome. The world has to have duality. You cannot have light but for the darkness. How can one know joy, if they never know sadness? However, conscious people view struggle as a way to grow, a pathway to change or to a higher level of consciousness. When things get uncomfortable in one’s life whether it be a job loss or medical condition one must be conscious enough to ask “how did I contribute to this; or what can I do to change this situation and finally what can I learn from this situation?”
When we face life’s problems, remaining positive is paramount as well as doing daily positive affirmations. If you don’t feel comfortable in saying them at least listen to them. Also stop complaining. Sure complaining early on in a situation keys us into knowing something isn’t right in our lives, but after awhile it actually can make things worse, not better. Words have power. So speak about what you want more of in life, rather than what is wrong in your life.
Meditation is also a great way to change situations. Meditate on a goal whether it be good health or a new job. See and feel yourself in that new situation and then give it to God. I have always had a grand imagination and mediation has come easy to me. If it doesn’t for you, there are a myriad of guided meditation recordings available.
I also believe in positive prayer, which was new to me until about five years ago. After reading several new age authors like Louise Hay and Dr. Wayne Dyer, I realized begging God to help me was taking away my own power to change my life. After having taken a couple classes at a Science of the Mind spiritual center, I realized I didn’t know how to pray positively.
Ernest Holmes creator of Science of the Mind calls affirmative prayer “a treatment.” It begins with acknowledging God as the most high being and then yourself as a perfect creation of Him. Then you merely state in the treatment what you see as the answer to your prayers. You see the situation healed and whole. The treatment ends in a statement of gratitude. Quite different than falling to your knees and begging God to help you because you are in a pathetic state and unable to help yourself.
You also need to trust and be open to the guidance you get and act upon it. Believe that the thoughts and repetitive signs you receive are from the Divine. Trust that the Universe is conspiring to do good on your behalf. And lastly have faith that your partnership with God will bring positive change into your life.
She began her writing career as a newspaper reporter in Northern California and South Louisiana in the ’90s. After moving to Manhattan in 2002, she became a magazine editor, director of communications for an international real estate firm and an agency publicist. She is now living in the Southern US writing about spiritual topics that interest her.